And let faith be the bridge you build ☺

Uncertainty

2012-02-24T18:50:00.001-08:00

Feeling all weird and cranky in the morning, but it's okay, nothing's new.

Last night I did something silly. And like the saying goes, some people leave your life for better ones to enter. I cannot deny I haven't really accepted that yet but I'm learning, and I will one day live by it.

Right now as im typing this, I've made up my mind to just literally delete certain people off my life. I've always been there for anyone anytime though, but sadly not all are reciprocating. Boo side of a libra, always in search of peace. But as of now, it is time.

I'm in repair, I'm not together but I'm getting there.

/

2012-02-24T09:19:00.004-08:00

"Take a piece of my life

Take a piece of my soul

Take a piece of my face

So I'll never grow old

And take a piece of my world

Take a piece of my heart

Take a piece of my brain

So I can never be smart

Everybody wants to see me down

With my body on the dirty ground

Everybody wants"

O wall flower

2012-02-21T09:24:00.003-08:00

Yipeee yaw, the dreaded formative assessment is finally over! Days and nights spent working on em' pieces finally paid off after a self-proclaimed successful presentation today. Good job all of you little teachers! :D

Been working so hard the past week it somehow feels empty tonight not getting down to any of the artsy stuff. Reckon i am indeed immune to the superworkaholic lifestyle i lead, not saying it is bad but neither is it good. Many a times i just feel i am too hard on myself but o well, we all have expectations set to reach.

Today started and ended off with a happy note, for after class i met Ryan the big goodie good who came all the way just to accompany me to get my sister's birthday present at A&F! And o this potato here has now grown some buds, i have finally made my first step into the ohsofamous A&F. But honestly, not much of a surprise as to the things on the rack. Mainstream, mainstream.

Got my babygirl something small for belated vday too, bearing the thought that i'll be finally seeing her this saturday! Not sure of the plans yet but uh huh nothing keeps me going this well :D

O and thank you so much to you Ryan, for helping me luge that huge ass file around town today! Appreciate it heha :)

It is about an hour over Reena's 20th birthday but once again, happy birthday beloved sis! Nothing cheesy shall appear here but you know i love you big time! Cutie pie mom baked a sponge cake today specially for the birthday girl, topping it up with yummy tiny strawberry mochies :) Smallest gestures, greatest pleasures.

2 mins to 0111 but i am still wide awake. Our supposedly one week break is sadly, eaten up so badly till the extend that the only day left for leisure and personal time is the precious friday... TGIF indeed! Class's at 9 tomorrow but the strong urge of skipping class is overwhelming me..... This. is. bad.

Nonetheless i will still attend class for the sake of my dearie June! Planned to head down to funan after class to have a look see at which DSLR she's planning to get. Might also check out the dry box i've been wanting to get for a really long time to keep my baby safe and protected.

Been such a long time since i've felt so lighthearted towards the things that come in my way, and i am more than glad to have such people, be it new or old, to enter/stay with me through the good and the bad.

Sometimes faith alone conquers everything.

Goodnighty x

For you i sing

2012-02-20T06:46:00.000-08:00

Can you hear / Close your eyes / Hearts are racing side by side

Dead weight and balloons

2012-02-18T05:05:00.000-08:00

Nobody said Valentine's day cannot be enjoyable without the other half. Mine was well spent with Ryan at Dempsey Hill, awesome dinner and a long night walk to end off the day. Who would have known it's the first bouquet of flowers Ryan ever gave to a girl, having to experience a very well planned vday with surprises here and there?

Sometimes it is wise not to expect, but we all know how flowers blossom down your windpipe receiving surprises.. MMMMMM :) Receive two luxurious gifts from zhiwei on vday too. I shared some love with my two dearies in school, although nothing big, hope you girls like it :)

Days been crazily packed with artsy assignments to complete.....But fear not for after the 21st, we can welcome our well deserved break with honor. You reap what you sow, and for now it is only right to work and give my best to satisfy my competitive self.

Certain days where i look like a mess with paint all over me, i still go into deep thoughts whether i made the right choice. Regrets often come too late, but o well, such is life. These 8 months in NAFA has taught me the different side of art i missed out all this while, and i will continue to explore and venture into this paradise.

3 more days till war..... Let's move further and fight harder!!!

Till then :)

Fire away / fire away

2012-02-12T06:06:00.000-08:00

Stone hard, machine gun / Fired at the ones who run

The thunder calls for me

2012-02-10T06:39:00.000-08:00

School life in the past months with a little bit of excitement and love here and there. Received a text from my bff Joyce a few days back, expressing her misses for me. I cannot help but think back about the young and free days we've had together, be it if we did anything at all, time spent with her was worthwhile. If you're reading this, just wanna let you know i miss you so much and i need to see you soon bbg<3

Back in reality, celebrated Kay's 19th birthday last week. Smiles fun and whatnot, i am blessed to have known this group of awesome people. School has never once been boring with them around, even though it might be mundane sometimes. Assessment is officially in another 10 more days, and truth be told, i'm nowhere near completion.

I've been procrastinating so much that i'm passing the boundary i've set for myself. Whatever happened to the drive and will to work harder this semester? Nonetheless, still doing my best for whatever work needed to be done. No intentions to portray any negativity here so i really really really really hope that my best would be enough.

Anyhow, spiced up my artsy life a little with prawning a few days back. Come to think of it, it's been awhile since i've done anything outside my comfort zone, with artsy stuff aside, that is. Ended the day exhausted, with prawns flying in my face (HAHA). Time for leisure activities is sadly, never enough.

Tonight is a work-free night, just me, and me alone drowning in this serenity. O how much i miss times like this. Back tracking down my memory lane brings back a whole lot of fond memories during my 8 months break after O levels. Lazed such a good long break away, now that i've realized i'll never get such privilege to just stay home with messed up hair and retreat to my bed any time i want.

As much as i hate to grow up, i am trying my best to enjoy whatever life brings. I live knowing that when i get older, i will be stronger. My faith is once again renewed.

Retail therapy and artsy moment awaits. Ciao x

Fills my heart / burns me up

2012-02-07T08:12:00.001-08:00

Ending off another mundane yet exhausting school day with a shitload of unfinished work. It seems that no matter how hard I work, nothing is ever enough to fufil the high demands.

I ponder for a rather long time today, weighing out the good and the bad of the life I'm living, or rather, am expected to live. There is never time for regrets, and today is no exception. I've come to the point where I know the only way to pave and wiggle your way through this society is to suck things up like a man.

And I will, for it is vital to achieve more than what I'm capable of.

Just one more week to Valentine's day, and another to the dreaded formative assessment. I have learnt to stay contented by not expecting, but somewhere somehow, this flame never once died. O well, life goes on.

Whatever I have in life now I worked hard for it, and I will work harder to receive better. I want to have the luxury to enjoy the finest things in life, like they always say, 'You reap what you sow'.

Till then x

Dreams dont turn to dust

2012-02-02T08:42:00.001-08:00

My eyelids are forcing themselves open as I prioritize the need to express my inner self. I am immune to the minimal hours of sleep I get everyday due to the heavy workload, and I cannot deny every school day is as exhausting.

I can see how the 9 modules are gonna drain my sea of energy till the very last drop, and how much it will darken the bags resting comfortably below my eyes. I am so, so so so worn out.

Once again I am doubting myself, have I chose the correct path to venture into? As this feeling overwhelms me, I think back about the halcyon days I used to live. We all want an easy life, one where we do nothing but survive. But when will we learn that nothing of this sort is achievable?

There comes a point in life where the weight of the world is on your shoulders, but what can you do?

Small joys x :)

2012-01-23T10:50:00.000-08:00

It is by the far the best new year I've ever had, although the previous years were as good. Pretty amazing to witness how people you love grow up so fast, and those that we see only once a year, grew toooooo much. It is distance indeed, which sets this awkward tension in a place we call 'home', somewhere we were supposed to feel comfortable.

On a brighter note, things over at maternal's side stays, in fact, as each year passes, we grow closer. I love how impromptu family gatherings bring us so much joy. Smallest gestures, greatest pleasure. Indeed.

A great start to new year just makes everything better, working alongside faith and optimism, nothing is gonna tear down the wings i have. I'm still sky high, still flying. I sat at a corner and did a little observation today, and i realized how fast time flies, how much we've all changed, some for the better, some the worse. But as the saying goes, the only constant is change, therefore all we need to do is to hope we'll only grow stronger, and wiser.

I have also seen a better part of the world ever since my break up with Kyle, although the heaven i once felt can never be compared. I feel thankful everyday for i know there are still people sticking around, sharing their woes and joy with me. Even though i don't have everything that i want in my life, nonetheless, i am blessed.

Our destiny lies in our hands. Just like a kite, do we let the winds of life guide us through, or do we tug and be control of our own lives?

Be wise. Xx

Bravery on thin ice

2012-01-16T09:09:00.000-08:00

"Happiness; How do i keep it, conceal it, bury it where i may never lose it?"

Priceless, regardless.

2012-01-15T08:33:00.001-08:00

I've been procrastinating far too much till the extend I scare myself. Days been packed with school work, school work and more school work. Been slogging my tiny ass off but time just never, ever seem to be enough.

Truth be told I am indeed a very competitive student, however accompanied with humbleness. It is funny how I work so hard only to attain mediocre come backs, but I work alongside faith hoping one day my efforts will pay off.

I have yet to learn the genuine meaning of contentment, sadly. Perhaps that's why i keep seeking more and more in life. Will the swim in the sea of greed drown me or will I struggle to stay afloat, rewarded?

Life sets too many mind fucking questions no one can answer, and in the search of these unattainable answers, we fall, we hurt, then we learn.

However, is there a better way for us to experience the different spices life offers without pain or fear?

I wonder, I tumble.

Pebbles and ripples

2012-01-08T08:10:00.001-08:00

I relish the genuine meaning of enjoying and appreciating the little joys in life today, and I feel more than thankful.

To all you people who have tried breaking down the wall I built, thank you so much. Xx

My love has concrete feet

2012-01-07T09:44:00.000-08:00

I always equate chilly nights with cuddle weather, because it is the time where you need the most warmth. But o well, who do i have to cuddle with than my pillows?

School has started for a week now, and as unprepared as i am, the whole load of assignments still have their deadlines to meet. I don't know what else to say about school, but the only thing i know is... I am so exhausted.

Demands are raised simply because we are no longer in our first semester and 'newbies' this term no longer gives us anymore privileges. However, could it be a blessing in disguise for i will receive even more knowledge than i already have and be exposed new things? I bring forth a new form of optimism to school everyday, hoping to receive as much as i deserve.

As i am typing this, i am sitting on the exact same chair in the same position for more than 12 hours now, excluding times where i get up to have meals or visit the bathroom. Had a busy dotty day today, pretty much exhausted, but time for penning down my thoughts never runs out.

Been reflecting a lot these few nights, and i come into an epiphany that it is indeed much more important to be contented than to be happy. Contentment comes with no buts, however, us humans never fail to ask for more. People say seek and you will receive, ask and you will get. I don't know if it's right to live by that now, for i have, and it proves otherwise. How ironic.

Dismiss all that insults your soul, and your very flesh will be a great poem which has the richest fluency.

Till then, x

Ending or pending

2012-01-03T08:02:00.001-08:00

Tonight just have to end with this overwhelming gush of emotions. As they consume me, the fights I put up doesn't seem to be working at all.

I fear everytime I trust someone too much, for I know if I allow them too close they have the rights to hurt me. It is humble to say that I've grown so much through the hard and painful times, but somehow, I need to stop hurting before I learn.

The walls I build around me they ain't too high, but high enough to block out every ounce of obligation I'm expected to make. It is wise to hold a doubt in every person you meet for it is, and always will be, a form of self protection.

But I trust too easily. You can tell by the way I let you people into my life, especially those I share my darkest secrets with. I love you guys, and I don't want the day of losing someone to come, but anyhow, everybody leaves eventually, isn't it?

When will I ever learn to deal with departures? Or is it the truth that I will never learn at all?

Take a little ride on 'em rainbows

2012-01-02T01:35:00.000-08:00

Oh how time flies, a whole year of 2011 has now been added to the archives list on this humble writing space. We all hope to be a better person only when the new year approaches, and it seemed like a norm for that wish to never be fulfilled every year. Negativity aside, shall we all work harder and have more faith to achieve what we actually wish for?

It is meaningful when you think about all the new year resolutions you planned to achieve, but are you really ready to make a difference in your own life? Or are they there so it serves as a form of encouragement that this new year will be a better one? Such rhetorical questions keep me thinking all the time.

This time two years ago, I was a broken person. Someone special came along and made a difference in my life, even though right now things ain't as perfect and beautiful anymore, the 'us' we once had would always be etched in my heart. It is indeed saddening to see how fragile a relationship can be, but instead of mourning over the loss of something so wonderful, i'd choose to be thankful over what i once had.

Right now i am starting this year off as a broken person too, however, with a much lighter heart. I feel thankful and blessed everyday for i am still breathing, still smiling. The world is filled with hidden surprises, and sometimes, we just need to slow down our pace and take some time off to smell the roses.

As cold and bitter this world may seem, it is indeed that which molds us to who we are today. We fall in order to learn, and hurt in order to heal. I cannot deny what a vicious cycle love can be sometimes, however, we do get bits and pieces of heaven each time it works out. Therefore, be thankful, do not lose yourself in the sea of greed.

If you ask me what my new year resolutions are, i don't wish for much but i want all the people i love to be happy because of me, and i want to make a difference in lives of people whom i love. I do too, hope that someone comes along and make a difference in my life, because after all reciprocated feelings are nothing but the best.

I have so much faith right now i feel anything is possible, and i am ready to make a difference in my life, readier than any other day.

Care and share, to make this world a better place. Xx

Weight of the world feels like nothing

2011-12-28T09:09:00.000-08:00

Ain't feeling much of the blogging vibes tonight but somehow i feel the need to just pen down all my thoughts. It's been almost a month now, the parts that needs to be healed are healing, and i am more than ready to pick up a shovel and bury whatever hatchet i have before this whole year comes to an end.

Summing it all up, 2011 has been a really awesome year for me. I've scaled new heights and overcome so many more barriers, grown stronger, and live life instead of just existing. Many a times happy moments pass us by so fast we don't realize, and unhappy times just lingers all the way till you finally pluck up all your courage to push them aside.

Just 2 more days to redeem myself, and i am going to do that with just 2 empty boxes, a pen and a piece of paper.

I will pack all the negative thoughts and feelings into one empty box and throw it far out to the sea, so far away that it'll never come back to haunt me. The other box shall trap all the happy and memorable times, and i'll keep this box safe inside my heart. I'll pen down all that i want to achieve in the new year, things i should do and things i should not. That way, i'll be all ready and happy to welcome a better year.

Nights like tonight brings me back to the old times, times where we were all so young and free. I thought back about what kind of person i was and what i am today, and i am really thankful to those who have stayed by my side through the good, the bad and the ugly. Those who have left however, i am grateful for once having you in my life, be it if you made an impact or a difference, your presence was greatly appreciated.

I've also come into realization that it is not one that isn't good enough for another, rather, it is the greed and perfection we seek that often brings disappointments. It is time to start appreciating the fruit life bears and enjoy the sweetness of each bite you take.

The time to heal is not now, but i am on the way, and soon enough, i will be there.

Ciao xx

Let the river flow, then glow

2011-12-21T08:39:00.000-08:00

Just smiles and nothing else, x

Meow

2011-12-19T07:51:00.000-08:00

Took a long hard look at my life.

Lost my way while I was fighting the time.

A big black cloud, stormy sky

Followed me while I was living a lie.

So heartless, so selfish, so in darkness,

When all your nights are starless,

You're runnin' outta hope.

But I found the strength inside to see,

Found the better part of me,

And I'll never let it go.

I've come a long long way,

Made a lot of mistakes.

But I'm breathin', breathin',

That's right and I mean it, mean it.

This time I'm a little run down,

I've been living out loud.

I can beat it, beat it,

That's right 'cause I'm feeling, feeling.

Invincible,

woah oh-oh-oh-oh. [x3]

When you're gone for a day on your own,

Tear your heart out just to find your way home.

I've been so high, I've sunk so low,

I've come so far with nothing to show

For it mistaken, I got so good at taking,

But now I'm tired of faking.

This story's getting old.

But I found the strength inside to see,

Found the better part of me,

And I'll never let it go.

I've come a long long way,

Made a lot of mistakes.

But I'm breathin', breathin',

That's right and I mean it, mean it.

This time I'm a little run down,

I've been living out loud.

I can beat it, beat it,

That's right 'cause I'm feeling, feeling.

Invincible,

woah-oh-oh-oh-oh. [x3]

Invincible.

I'm not the only one,

To crash into the sun and live to fight another day.

Like a super nova, that old life is over.

I'm here to stay.

Now I'm gonna be,

Invincible.

Whoa-oh-oh-oh-oh [x3]

Invincible.

I've come a long, long way,

Made a lot of mistakes,

But I'm breathin', breathin',

That's right and I mean it, mean it.

This time I'm a little run down,

I've been living out loud.

I can beat it, beat it,

That's right 'cause I'm feeling, feeling,

Invincible.

Whoa-oh-oh-oh-oh [x3]

Invincible.

Whoa-oh-oh-oh-oh [x3]

Invincible.

A scar means i survived

2011-12-17T00:00:00.000-08:00

2 weeks flew past, we're still here, scarred but alive. Why do we not understand when there is love, there is bound to be pain? And why can't us humans be immune to pain and just love peacefully?

I don't get why, really.

But then again, how is it possible to not feel pain when we're all humans? It is through struggles that we learn to appreciate the good things in life, and it is through these painful lessons that we become someone stronger.

Today i present to you my stronger self, not perfect, but nevertheless, still here, still standing. I cannot thank those people who have been there for me all this while during my lowest point in life enough, but i just really wanna say thank you.

It's past twelve now, and this is the day i will hurt the most. I will bury everything under covers and avoid the sunlight, for the sun that shines on me is no longer you. This day 18 months ago I was the happiest, but the joy within somehow faded away. I am happy, just not that happy when i'm standing here without you.

Sleepless nights deeply hidden, and tears that were concealed. How long more do i have to appear strong and bubbly to everyone of you? I am hurting as i hit every letter on this keyboard, but no, i will not let that defeat me. I am stronger than that.

The time will come when i'm ready to heal, and feel. Till then, x

Dreams & reality

2011-12-14T09:10:00.000-08:00

"For my part, I know nothing with any certainty, but the sight of stars makes me dream" - Vincent van Gogh

Some of my favorite paintings. More up on facebook! Btw if you're interested, click the link below!

http://www.nationalmuseum.sg/ExhibitionDetail.aspx?id=65&cat=2

Ciao :)

Bloopers

2011-12-11T03:02:00.000-08:00

Getting over my depressed self for now. Chin up, get a different view of this world and fingers crossed it wouldn't be that bad! Meow+meow+meow=:D

Nude awakening

2011-12-09T05:19:00.000-08:00

When all's said and done, what do you do?

December doesn't seem like a good month for anyone at all, and it's no exception for me. It's pretty depressing how a supposedly joyous month had to be interrupted with so many forlorn moments. And even more saddening to know that nothing can be done.

I've come into an epiphany that even the most beautiful and perfect thing in my life is not sparred from abrupt endings, although i'm pretty sure that we didn't come this far just to mess things up. But it's okay, reality slapped me pretty hard that day i'll never forget.

How is it possible that this someone comes into your life, blends in, makes you feel so comfortable, and when you've lost that someone life doesn't feel right at all? I've been too reliant on that someone, and i guess now it's time to finally man up and sort out this life of mine.

If you're the someone and you see this, read on.

I'll miss the times where i need you to be there during my down points in life, and i'll too, miss those times where rewards mean enjoying fine-dining or having endless hugs and kisses. I'll miss the sleepless nights and heart to heart talks, and cuddles that bring so much warmth. I'll miss getting tucked into bed, and wrapped so safely under covers. I'll too, miss times where a simple fruit ninja game can keep us up and happy all night. I'll miss you helping me fold my lingerie because i was lazy, bring me water because i was thirsty, get me panadol when i'm having menstrual cramps, and coming all the way here under the starry night just to bring me to the doctor. I'll miss you complimenting how beautiful i am, how good i look without makeup, and i'll miss those nights where you'll turn up just because i wanted to see you. I'll miss you acting silly to make me smile, pampering me with all your love. I'll miss times where you sit quietly on my bed while i complete my work, hiding under my table with those cute puppy eyes whispering 'baby i want your attention'. I'll too, miss nights i spent with you at my place, and you crying just because you miss me when i'm right beside you. I'll miss times where we visit art museums, because i've never had someone who appreciate art as much as me. I'll miss all the fun times we had, and all the silly quarrels where we'll end up crying together. I'll miss times where we just kiss and make up when things don't feel right.

But i miss the happy you, therefore i'm leaving. Leaving you to find back your genuine smile. I'll leave you because you need to be free, you need to get back in line with things you've been missing out because of me.

I'll leave too, because i want to find back myself. I want grow into someone more capable of loving you. I want to be stronger, so i can shun away any amount of hurt i have to face.

But i won't say goodbye. Because 'goodbye means going away and going away means forgetting'. I do not want to forget. Maybe this distance apart will let us see something we've not been appreciating enough, and maybe this distance apart will make us all stronger.

My faith is once again renewed. And i'm leaving this 17 months behind to build up something much stronger and lovely in future. And by then, we'll see why we're invincible.

Takecare, x :)

Pick up the pieces and move

2011-12-05T07:43:00.000-08:00

Breaking up is never an easy thing to do. 17 months of love is just gone within a split second. 17th has a very significant meaning, where happiness starts and now, sadness and angst just rips it all away.

So much have changed within this one year.. I remember the times where everyday just ended with so much love, so many favorite cuddles and kisses, and i also remember times where i had tears to accompany me to sleep.

This time last year we were both so happy, shopping for christmas and deciding on our gifts. (And i have yet to give you yours... haha) And i'ld never forget all my first times with you, and i hope you won't too.

Everything started off with a broken heart, and the optimistic you helped me up, showered me with love. I've always felt the luckiest when i am with you, be it physically or not. I remember times where i mock my friends when their boyfriend ain't as sweet as you, or wouldn't make as much sacrifices as you would.

There were times too, where i felt that meeting you was just a passing phase. And that this blissful moment wouldn't last... And who knows, we made it through 17 months :) Love does wonders, it is magical, but sadly, when reality sinks in everything is gone.

I sit in silence as i go through 1062 photos of us. I cannot help but think back of all the happy times and smile. So damn heart wrenching to know that everything we've had, we won't have them anymore..

And whats the use of being upset when everything is already gone? The person who healed me, now left me to deal with this pain alone, all over again.

The faith i thought was enough to pull us through isn't enough anymore.

Sandstorm

2011-12-02T22:49:00.000-08:00

"When you come out of that storm you won't be the same person who walked in. And that's what the storm's all about"

Breathe me in

2011-11-30T06:42:00.000-08:00

This tiring day sums up to the moment where my sea of thoughts finally come into peace with the surrounding serenity. No more loud gushes or soft tiny waves, just me and me alone.

In every stroke of paint I applied today, I finally relished the genuine happiness I've been yearning to feel. It never felt that good for a really long time. Times like this I just wanna express my thanks to everyone and everything that has brought me up to who I am today, and that of which includes faith.

Faith is not a person, neither an object. But however insignificant it may seem, deep down within me it gives me strength, gives me the courage to go through things I never thought I would, even if it means facing a brewing storm alone. My stages of life ain't exactly that simple, yet not enough to be considered complicated. And yes, it's best not to rack them up.

But it is through these stages that foster my bond with the almighty faith, deeply hidden but not gone. It is through the hard times where I find faith bestowing its powers upon me.. I know this sounds pretty exaggerating but believe it or not, it means that much to me.

And I cannot help but wonder why us humans are often a help than a hassle to the people around them but the exact opposite to themselves? Are we that incapable we find ourselves too hopeless to be rescued?

The question marks revolves and tangles in the whirlpool of emotions, so tell me, are we really being ourselves when we let faith conquer all tough times, or does faith, through tough times, makes us who we are?

As time ticks away

2011-11-27T08:30:00.000-08:00

Tonight I come into an epiphany that we are all growing up too fast, changing so drastically into someone we ourselves sometimes cannot recognize. Change is constant, and undoubtedly inevitable, but are we changing for the better or worst?

Maybe, just maybe, the thought of growing up forces me into a state of trepidation. I hate how grades matter so much, and that sleep is no longer enough. And i miss how happiness only means getting a stuffed puppy from my dad whenever he goes overseas, or a simple birthday cake on my birthday.

Oh how time flies. We're all growing out of the shell we feel most comfortable in. This serene night brings me back to my younger days, where life is only full of joy and smiles. There is love though, just sweeter and much simpler.

I can relate so well to the movie "You're the apple of my eye"... And if you're thinking i'm trying to convey myself as popular or pretty and whatnot, then i feel sorry for your shallow mind. I reflected and thought through about the stages of life i have conquered, the people i have left upset, the people who left me and brought me smiles.

And today, i chanced upon this particular someone's facebook profile, which made me go into deeper thoughts. So much has happened within these 3 years... I have grown wiser, became stronger, and readier to accept the fucked up state of the society.

This someone, which i will not mention who, is someone of a certain significance to some extend. We were friends till the day that jealousy decided to wreck things up, and my nature just let things go to waste. It's not like i didn't want to salvage it, i just don't know how. I have something so important weighing on the other side, and i know it definitely isn't worth giving up for this friendship i have with this someone.

Don't get me wrong, i'm not saying i give up friendships that easily, but if you were in my shoes, you would have done the same too. Now that a year have passed, its time to bury the hatchet and start anew. Not exactly anew but.... you get the drift.

I'm still learning how to deal with departures, be it in friendship, relationship, or even life. I guess i still have a long way to go, and as i grow older, i will become stronger.

Three folds

2011-11-25T05:29:00.000-08:00

I looked around in curiosity as I sit in silence on a cramped purple bench, and I unknowingly realized that out of so many of us in this tiny little cabin, half of us are Indians. And no I'm not being racist, just very very observant.

In this modernized society today, no one survives without an electronic gadget. And sad to say, all of us are proudly possessing an iPhone. I cannot agree more that apple products are certainly the best in the world, to me at least. The hustles of the moving train seemed so calm yet surreal.

All geared up in my blue jeans and tie dye top, I am ready to fight the war today.

Good day x

Helloooo

2011-11-25T00:00:00.000-08:00

"You are you, and you are what makes you beautiful."

Big blue clouds

2011-11-24T07:11:00.000-08:00

So nice to see 1111pm right above the space I'm typing. I should be asleep by now, given the short hours or rest I had yesterday and the amount of work I did today, but I just had this need to blog.

I freaked out pretty badly the day before VE assessment and I'm sure you can tell from the angst in the previous post, but I guess god has answered my prayers and I feel really pleased with myself. Truth be told, I've been an ass to people I love recently. Maybe because of the stress I'm undergoing or the random and sudden moodswings that somehow managed to dominate my inner self.. Maybe.

Have you ever felt like your train of thoughts have been derailed? Like you have so much in your head you wanna express but you can't seem to. I have, and it's happening right now. There's a whirlpool going on up there and no I really don't like it. So what do I do?

Today just seem like a normal day to me, and the traveling time spent to attend an optional NIE class was made up with hannah's belated birthday celebration. My classmates are fun and awesome people, a really big jump from the ones had in my secondary school days. I love how this bunch share the exact same interest as I do, and the funk and punk just spice up my everyday life :)

As I process what my fingers should type next, I am feeling pretty confident for tomorrow's ceramics submission. It's the one and only module I enjoy and think I can score.. And hopefully I really will. Spent a 5 long hours this noon touching up and beautifying all my eyes, and yes only now am I satisfied.

I still cannot get over myself trying to be a perfectionist, although I've been trying really hard to curb this habit, to no avail of course. But ain't it good to have high expectations of yourself? But then again, no one is ever good enough to survive in the society today. The irony.

14 minutes of subconscious typing should really stop now. Pleads from within is forcing me to sleep so toodles, xx

Pfft

2011-11-20T08:53:00.001-08:00

Fuck my life and fuck you VE. Wasted my beautiful Saturday and Sunday and all my precious paint and it just had to turn out like shit. Really shit. And I'm really pissed off i dont understand why the fuck must we design a stupid calendar.

And yes it's me being angsty again because I cannot take imperfections.

Fuck my life.

Champion

2011-11-15T08:01:00.000-08:00

Badass tiny with a badass headache......... BOO.Today was great. Tomorrow will be better. Thursday will be awesome. And Friday will be a blast.

Catch y'all some time soon! Tiny needs her well deserved rest now so toodles :))

Time bomb

2011-11-14T16:53:00.000-08:00

With the sun beaming ever so vibrantly, it marks a refreshing start to a brand new day.

I haven't been exactly feeling good emotionally and physically but today, I choose to be awesome. I choose to let happiness overwhelm my soul and leave sadness far behind. Today I choose to regain all my faith in everything I do and become a better person to love.

With faith nothing is unreachable. Good day people xx :)

Legohouse

2011-11-13T10:58:00.000-08:00

"I'm gonna pick up the pieces and build a lego house, cause if things go wrong we can knock it down"

A new lovely single by Ed Sheeran. I've been really updated with the latest hits and events happening lately, all thanks to my only companion at night. I realized the most soothing list of music comes only after 12am, where all the djs pack up and go to bed, leaving the station with nothing but an auto generated playlist.

Music calms the soul, gathers all the inspiration I need for every piece of work I have. Thankfully the catchy tunes never fail to do their job. It's 0307h and I just retreated back to bed. Same old mundane and exhausting night routine. I blame myself for the lack of sleep for I procrastinate too much during the day. But the only form of relaxation I can enjoy is the time I spent procrastinating. How ironic.

I always wonder if I'm being too hard on myself, trying to compete against time and the devil within me. I have to learn to be more acceptant of failures and not mourn when things are not going my way. Just today in the noon, I didn't get the results I want from the canon printer we have at home, and I feel myself hating on it, blaming how poor the quality is. And no, that's not the way.

Being a libra sometimes is so hard. On one hand I yearn to be a perfectionist, but on the other hand I spend all my life weighing the good and the bad. So tell me, when will I ever realize things are never gonna be perfect? Roses are not always red, neither are skies always blue.

A boundary in life which I have failed countless times to overcome is my will to make decisions. I am so indecisive till the extend that I cannot stand myself. Even by buying a brush that cost 5$ takes up 15 minutes of my life, not mentioning 3 months choosing a camera as my birthday present. And I'm not only like that towards myself, but everyone and everything around me. If I cannot stand myself, I do not expect anyone to. But I thought you would, since you're the one whom understands and love me the most.

Am I wrong to think and doubt our love at this point of time, where we bicker about the most redundant and insignificant things? I know sometimes you want to let me know how you feel, and indeed, opening up is hard. But I have done it, so can you. It's not like everytime you try to tell me things, I retaliate by finding fault with you. Baby it's not like that..

If you tell me something which I think should be improved, then why are we not taking action? Do we keep things hanging and wait till they get too heavy we'll lose everything we had?

All this redundant quarrels will only distance us further, and that is never on my list. Maybe the thousand miles apart right now are driving us both crazy but fear not, for I am seeing you in just 4 more days. I really hope the chance to fetch you back from the airport will sound as appealing to you as it did when you first enlisted, and that I will be the first you embrace in 3 weeks.

I miss you so much I cannot wait for you to return. The night ended cold with angst but nevertheless, you're still the one I love the most and always will be.

I love you and goodnight xx

0244h

2011-11-12T10:44:00.000-08:00

Hello from my cosy bed.

I know best I should be asleep by now but somehow I needed to spill out all my thoughts and I thought this place would do good. Tonight is just but another lonely Saturday night, with me hiding under covers and enjoying the company of my bolsters. I wish there was someone for me to hug but all I found has no resemblance.

Stop guessing because no, I'm not emotional, just being really frank with myself regarding the series of events that are happening in my life. You know someday you just feel so....small, not literally but emotionally, till the extend that you feel your existence in this world is insignificant. I have no clue why exactly this feeling is taking over my optimistic self but I guess it's okay to feel like that. Everyone has times like this too and I am no exception.

I've been drawing the whole of today, with pop music and some form of motivation to tide me through. The amount of work I have is weighing down on me so bad I've never disliked myself for taking this big step into art before. Drawing, painting and whatnot used to be a form of consolation and self expression, but right now it has become just a form of activity. I no longer enjoy it nor find myself within the art pieces anymore.

And in search of the answer, I find nothing. It all dawns down to me being over passionate about my hobby. Till now I still question myself why I didn't choose the JC path instead, where I could end up graduating with a square academic hat and fulfilling my mom's wish. And since education and certificates matter more than personal qualities and skills, I am much more puzzled and disappointed with myself. Have I really made the right choice?

But right now it's too early to tell. I'll just wait till all my artsy efforts pay off and only then will I thank myself for making that one wise decision in life.

Its 0305h now I guess it's only right to head to bed. Till then, xx

True blue

2011-11-12T01:24:00.000-08:00

This post is so late but nevertheless, i really had fun with joyce on my birthday! Thank you for everything you have planned and have done for me i really appreciate it! I don't know what life will be without you but i'd never want to know :)

Love you forever xx :)

1.04am

2011-11-06T09:04:00.000-08:00

Eraser dusts in my hair and marker stains everywhere. Tonight is a busy artsy night, or rather, every night is. Had this sudden urge to blog so i'm typing as i stress over the fact that Tuesday is my big big day.

Sometimes at some point of life i come into realization that i am fighting against this monster in me. Some days i really wanna quit and just rot around, and probably become a cleaner when i grow up. But no that's not worth it. The strength to carry on in everything life expects has been drained till the extend that the only strength left is to live.

Why are we living such a life where no one is truly able to just do what they like? People just get tired of doing the same thing all the time. Wake up, go to school, come home, go to bed. This mundane cycle just keeps on repeating, and no it doesn't stop, not even when leaves wither and roses die.

The tune of old classics makes tonight a serene night, and unlike any other days, monday blue will be long forgotten before we know.

Blessed 17th :)

2011-10-22T08:36:00.000-07:00

Best birthday ever!

Steamboat with clique!!

+ Surprise during ceramic class with beancurd tart(yum!)

+ Surprise after NIE class at food for thought!

+ EOS 550D from baby+mum!!

+ Tons of birthday presents!

+ Actual birthday date with babyboy!!!!

+ USS with joyce! (In a separate post)

☺☺☺☺☺☺☺☺☺☺☺☺☺☺☺☺☺☺☺☺☺☺☺☺☺☺

12/10

19/10

20/10

21/10

Thank you once again to all that was part of awesome birthday celebration! Thank you to especially baby, Joyce, June, Liling, Kay, Jiaen and Sam! The best and most unforgettable birthday celebration!

Thank you june and liling for always being there for me and treating me like a little girllllll hehe! And knowing that i hate to be alone regardless of anything i do, you guys never once complained about accompanying me, even if it means having to walk a longer distance or making an unnecessary trip :)

Thank you to you too baby, for the wonderful night out! This year marks the 2nd year i'm celebrating my birthday with you, and undoubtedly it still feels as great as the 1st, maybe even better! Thank you for scrimping and saving just to have enough to get me my birthday present, i really appreciate it! You're the best boyfriend in the world and i love you so much, forever and always xx :)

Fix you

2011-10-09T07:10:00.000-07:00

Hello cute boy, come back soon! :)

Cry, cry baby

2011-09-16T00:40:00.000-07:00

Been really busy with school. My class is crazy but i love them all. First lesson at NIE sucked.......... And i know every thursday is gonna suck as bad. Nevertheless, gonna do my best! Love l3 and June for always being there :)

Baby steps

2011-09-01T06:40:00.000-07:00

The basic steps i take from out of bed to out of house. And i believe i'm one of those girls who can wake up late and still leave house looking good in just 20 mins. Hurhurrrr.

Update sometime soon. Ciao!

Move along

2011-08-27T10:42:00.000-07:00

Today isn't exactly a very good Saturday for both baby and I. Greeted by upset tummies in the morning and had a tiff in the noon, therefore the rest of the day was just normal. But it's okay, at least we ended it off well with the usual goodbye hugs and kisses.

Van Gogh's exhibition at the Art Science Museum was a huge disappointment. None of the actual works were displayed, instead, they were just projected images.... Technology is ruining our world. Bad, bad, bad. They also had some dancers to perform, which i think was totally redundant cuz i'm sure Van Gogh wasn't a choreographer or something......

However Salvador Dali's one was pretty good. I was awed by the many other art pieces of his that i've never seen in other exhibitions or online before. I really like the way Dali paints his pictures, and no doubt most of my art pieces are inspired by him. He's my favourite artist and will always be.

Wanted to purchase the ice cream which astronauts eat in space, but it's so costly so we didn't get any! Heard from baby that Science Center sells it for a lower price so........... We're definitely visiting that place soon! The last time i went there was with my family for the boring C.S.I investigation thingy.

Planned to head to 8Q for some flea in the night but since i got a heads up from liling, we decided to just shop around Marina Square. Visited topshop and sad to say their stuffs are getting so boring...... I hope the about-to-launch H&M wouldn't be as disappointing!

Speaking of that, everyone seem to be so excited for the opening of H&M! The first 5 people in the queue gets a free 250$ gift card and the subsequent 300 gets a free gift card worth 20$. Although i'm pretty hyped for it too but i won't be like some crazy ass people heading down at like 8-ish in the morning or something. Haha.

I'll probably just pop by there with baby or something during noon. Needa head to town to check out the moon cake fair held at taka to get yummy moon cakes for my family and his. This year, it'll be our 2nd year celebrating moon cake festival together already. Time really flies... :)

Shall end this post with a really cute photo of baby and i!

Till then. Xx

Ocean Avenue

2011-08-25T07:46:00.000-07:00

Few more hours to the 26th of August, a day all DAT students look forward to! And if you're wondering why, we're getting our 800$ tomorrow woohoooooooooo!

So i just came to this space to update a little about my life, which basically revolves around school and my relationship with kyle. Nothing much to update about my family cuz i love em the same everyday hehe~

I've been pretty much enjoying school, with awesome mates and fun modules... Nothing more to ask for. I did ceramics when i was in pri6 and i thought i loved it. But when i started ceramic class in NAFA, i thought otherwise. The good thing is i'm starting to like it more every week :)

But nothing is gonna make me like printmaking.................. I dont know why but i dont enoy it at all. Hopefully things will get better hurrrrrrrrr. Basic drawing a+b is alright for me, I love the way Mr Baet conducts his lessons, and he certainly doesn't seem like the way he looked. Mickey's class is okay~ We always have nothing to do there so Wednesdays always end earlier than 6 :)

I feel the need to emphasize on the fact that i'm really, really enjoying school hahaha. So............ I really love NAFA no matter what people say. And i can study, (math, science, humans or whatever) I just don't want to anymore. Art is fun. Artists are intelligent people...... So you get the drift!

Kyle and i are doing good too, although we just had a tiny quarrel last night. Everything's well now and we're all loving each other the same. He spent 2/3 nights out with me, just an hour or so and he heads back to camp. But what i'm happy about is the fact that he bothered to travel an hour in exchange of the same duration of time with me.

People always question if i'll stray, or like someone else while he's serving the boring army. They say i won't wait. They say army guys are useless. They don't earn much, and they can't spend time with their girlfriends. I dont regard my bf as part of they. He's different.

He spends whatever spare time he has with me, and spends every cent he has on me. I'm not flaunting over the fact that he cares for me more than he does himself, i just wanna express how much i appreciate having someone like him :')

Have a good weekend everyone. Ciao!

Pot of gold

2011-08-13T08:58:00.000-07:00

Well well well, haven't been on this space for a long time....... Life's been good. School's going well, relationship doing great. 3 more days from now would be our 14th month together, see how time flies :')

Just a little update about school.. I really love how NAFA functions, the way the teachers teach and react and most importantly, the stuffs we learn. Definitely a positive difference compared to my secondary school days.

Sometimes it just doesn't feel like school at all, with the new ceramics class, printmaking class and all the classes related to art. Its like heaven (at least for now). And i'm pretty glad myself, that my life finally has more meaning to it. No more boring sciences or complicated math. Mmm :)

I've been doing great myself too, with a boyfriend ever so supportive of anything i do and a family that is more than understanding. Things with baby are going well too, no quarrels, just love. Been trying to spend as much quality time with him every saturday since now that my school started, saturday nights are no longer with him. :(

But tell me, since when time spent with him isnt considered quality time? Regardless if we catch a movie or just lay in bed for the day, nothing feels as enjoyable as ever just to see him happy. If he's happy, i am. That simple. And nevertheless, i have to thank god for granting me such a great family. Really. :')

Today went well with SOFT! icecream, then Zookeeper at ehub, ending off with Popeye's for dinner. Took a bus back to my place and baby sat awhile before he left for home. It has never been easy to see him leave, especially now that saturday nights are no longer ours. But i know we're stronger than that :)

Was on skype with him a few moments ago but hung up so i could do a proper post. And right now that i'm almost done, i will satisfy his hunger for my call. It's been long. :)

Till then.

Orientationnnnnnnn

2011-07-29T08:20:00.000-07:00

Life in NAFA is great with em' awesome people. Nuff said. :)

Set fire to the rain

2011-07-19T11:19:00.001-07:00

Time flies. In another 5 days or so, a new life surface. Having mixed feelings about starting school. And apparently I feel so distanced from the world.... It's been long.

Starting school means meeting people, making friends, learning new things. However, it also means stress, homework, and lesser time for people i love. Yes i'm excited that i'm finally able to concentrate solely on art and art alone, forgetting about the hated math and sciences. But definitely upset that i will not be able to spend much time with kyle and my family.

Orientation from 25th-29th next week. Pretty hyped that only 2 courses have a solid 5 days orientation while the other courses only has 1. Gonna be so much fun meeting new friends and doing art with people of my kind.

You have to agree that people who does art are different. Different in a good way that is. We think differently, we act differently. Personally i do feel i'm different, and sometimes, weird. It's like i always try to let the world fit into me, rather than me fitting into the world.

I look at things in many perspective, on the good side, and the bad side. Probably being a libra makes me, me. But no doubts art made me a different person. It changed me. Art, is magical. I can never explain to you how much art means to me. And just so you know, art heals people. People = me.

And if i ever give you any of my art pieces, you must mean alot to me.

My best.

2011-07-10T08:58:00.001-07:00

Hola! I've been away from this space for a really long time.... But fear not for i am back!

Been busy having fun with baby during his one week block leave. That soldier finally POP lo! But sadly, I didn't have the chance to attend cuz there were only 2 tickets and his parents were going so....yup. Nevertheless, still proud of him for making it this far!

We basically spent the whole one week together with him staying over at my place for 3 nights! Hehehe. Caught Transformers (3D) at IMAX on monday, even though i haven't watched the past series of transformers, i find this one really nice! I like bumblebee best cuz he's so cute :B

On tuesday, we woke up at 5.45am to prepare and trained to habourfront centre just to collect our ferry ticket which leaves for batam two hours later. Yup, 5.45AM!!! Was so hyped yet scared about the trip cuz it's baby and i's first trip out of Singapore!

Had so much quality time together with baby without distractions from our phones or friends or whatsoever! Hehehe, the most memorable part of the trip was getting souvenirs for our families and shirts for ourselves! Really enjoyed the trip and i'm more than glad it was successful :)

Baby went back home on wednesday morning. Thursday he came over and we went to NEX for Monte Carlo! It was an average show but i really missed the feeling of watching movies in normal theatres cuz we've been to IMAX for the past 4-5 movies!!!!

Went down to suntec to collect my shitty IT fair pay and headed home thereafter. Friday he came over again and we spent the day at home being all high and laughing like crazy! Hahaha and i have no idea why i kept accidentally injuring baby!!! LOL and that was one of the reasons why we laughed till our sides hurt.......... Hehe!

He went home at 4pm while i prepared and headed to town to meet Elisha for dinner. Man, it was so awkward! I haven't really went out with him before and that night was the first time i see him in 2 years!!!!! Hahaha had a meal, bought his fragrance and headed home!

I spent my saturday noon at home and night at East Coast for a sumptuous dinner with my family while my poor soldier had to book in cuz he was asked to do guard duty. Sunday which is today, was spent at my grams playing with my little cuzzies! So heartwarming to see them grow and learn every week :)

Truth be told, i am really grateful that baby and i came such a long way. It wasn't easy at all with those big quarrels that we had and the little bickers and everything, but we made it anyway. We are so open to each other till the extend that we really don't mind saying anything we feel, and that's a good thing.

Even though sometimes i may complain that he doesn't have enough time for me and that he neglects me(which he never does), but i know deep inside my heart, he's someone who would put me on priority regardless of anything he do. And for that, i really do appreciate you baby :)

Friday night will come fast so hang in there alright! Love you so much xx :)

Just4laughs

2011-06-25T09:56:00.000-07:00

The fam and i on fisheye effect. Haw hawwwwwww!

The small joys in life people miss out. If we all spend a little more time being happy everyday, life would be so much more enjoyable.

In my heart.

2011-06-19T09:39:00.000-07:00

"I'd never know what the future brings but I know that you're here with me now. We'll make it through and I hope you are the one I share my life with" :')

Time really flies. We've gone through a year together now. So many places, so many movies, so many meals, so many nights, so many fights, so many disappointments, so many plans, so many achievements, together.

They say libra and capricorn falls under the most incompatible signs, but look at where we are now. Doing good and going fine. And what brings us together is nothing but love, trust, commitment and faith.

I've always had faith in everything I do. And I am more than glad I made you have faith the way I do, because then with this love bonded by faith, we go beyond boundaries. We fall, we hurt, we learn, we get up, we move on.

Got over insecurities, spoke up, broke up, made up. And yup, that is what we are really made of.

This sounds so cliche but nevertheless, I love you baby, thank you for being the best boyfriend ever and loving me with all you have. The road ahead of us is long and arduous but with you by me, I fear nothing.

Happy 1st Anniversary! :')

The more the merrier

2011-06-13T02:59:00.000-07:00

Working with them is such a joy ;)

Bbg ;)

2011-06-08T08:50:00.000-07:00

Nothing beats spending time with your best friend and doing things you love together. Everything was like rainbow and butterflies till I got home. I really don't know what got into my dad for him to keep blabbering things that don't make any sense.

You see, I am not against him. We are not against him. We were just speaking our minds about us receiving gifts from him on our birthdays, or youth day or something. Not complaining at all but just........curious.

On monday when mum, sis and I went to town for some retail therapy, we bought a goldlion key pouch for him. Yes, we know all along he doesn't thank us for anything we buy or do for him, its alright. We're used to it.

But I don't see why he must say we're going against him and siding mum in every issue, and said we're being irrational. Seriously????????????????

Feeling so screwed up cuz of this.............. Urgh. Have to get up at 7.ooam tomorrow!!!!! COME FIND ME AT THE IT SHOW K IF YOU'RE GOINGGGGGG!! And hor, if you see me, please call me. Like say hi or something. Cuz always after the show people come telling me on msn or fb saying they saw me but I DIDNT SEE THEM!!! Be nice k ^^

1 more week and 2 days till i get to see my babyboy :( Miss him so much!

♥☺♥☺♥☺

2011-06-07T23:00:00.000-07:00

New haircut + fruitful shopping trip. 'Nuff said.

More than words

2011-06-06T10:34:00.000-07:00

All you can see is skin and bones!!!!!!!!! Baby is so skinny lorrrrrrrrrrrr *envy*

So as you all know, he left for outfield this morning and won't be back until next Wednesday. (thats like fucking long!!!!!!!) And yes, not contactable till next monday! Gosh, this feels exactly like his confinement week..

And I'll only be able to see him on the 17th of june even though he's booking out on the 15th! Reason being is my family and i would be heading to Cameron Highland from 14th to 17th june and would only reach sg at 10pm on 17th............ Urghhhhhhh!!

On a lighter note, 17th june is our first anniversary! This is my first ever relationship that worked out so well. So, so glad.

Missing baby so bad now.............. Hope he's safe and doing well xx ;)

Dim dum

2011-05-29T09:23:00.000-07:00

Visited nex for sogurt
Trained to vivo
Baby got me my FP shoes
Cousin's birthday celebration at aunt's place
Had a quarrel at night
Glad everything's good now

They say money is everything. But so what if you've got money ain't got love? Love makes you happy, gives you security. Isn't that what everyone else is asking for?

I would choose love over money anyday, even though i know it's not really practical. But i will rather be happy than wealthy........ You only live once, so why not live happily?

Bubble bubble pop

2011-05-25T07:29:00.000-07:00

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Another simple day out with baby on the 21th. No pictures of us cuz when we reached home we were both tired and moody.... Or maybe just me.

Ran around the whole of town that saturday just to look for my shoes. And yes, it was suppose to be a present from baby but he told me and we went to look for it together. The funny thing about us is that we always fail to surprise each other with gifts and all cuz eventually we will let the cat out of the bag.......... Lol.

I don't know if its a good thing cuz on one hand, you'll get to choose the item that you really like, but on the other hand, it's no longer a surprise anymore. However i prefer to know it sometimes and not know it at other times. Yeh, we're weird like that :)

Caught Pirates of the Carribean at cineleisure and got our BFF after that. Walked to ion then 313 then heeren again just to look for the pair of shoes that i really like. Baby didn't make any noise although he was perspiring like mad cuz he was in long sleeves and jeans. One of the many reasons why i love him :)

Headed back to 313's Starbucks and chilled there for awhile before we took the train home. Suppose to go for supper with baby and his friend but i was all tired so i asked him to leave without me. And becuz he thinks of me everywhere he goes, he dabao Rochor beancurd and you tiao back for my supper!!! Tell me how to not love this boy? :)

So yup. That practically rounds up my saturday!

Today, i went to meet mj and we caught 'Paul' at vivocity. Its really interesting and touching at the end so yup, go catch it! Caught up alot about her life and mine and the people around us. Gosh.. Our clique really needs to meet asap cuz i miss all my girls :(

GSS is officially starting but being a broke ass i don't enjoy any privilege. I have no idea when it ends but i truly hope the answer to be August and you should know why............ LOL.

Alrighty feeling so tired i don't know why so catchya people another time!

Feel me

2011-05-24T08:55:00.000-07:00

Drawing is a form of comfort. Happy/sad/happy/sad? I guess you know the answer.

Everything

2011-05-17T08:56:00.000-07:00

11 months passed by us like a flash of light. We've came a long way baby, and through all these times I believed we've grown so much more attached to each other.

Thinking back to the period where you were courting me, you are just as loving and caring as you are right now. There is never a time you were putting on pretense. Being more of a all action no talk person, you proved everything to me each time you said it. You love me, you show it. That simple.

I can never thank you enough for helping me grow, grow up to a better person today. You taught me so many values in life that I lack, and groomed me into someone so much more independent. Through every quarrel I learnt something new. Definitely a blessing in disguise.

With you, I learn to be more considerate, more sensible, sensitive and patient. Everything I do for you, I put in my best so that you can feel my efforts. And the only reason why I do that is simply because you deserve nothing but the best.

You're always praising me, saying I'm beautiful, talented and smart. Each and every time you do that I cant help but feel blessed. You make me fall in love all over again everyday. Yes, you're that capable.

The bad times we had were really bad. However, the good times were so much better that it definitely covers up for all those tears we shed, all the pain we endured. After that phase, love was as easy as l o v e.

We have so much more in future awaiting us. The road down life may be tough, but nothing is tough when I have you beside me.

Happy 11th month baby! Love you now and always xx :)

Love is this

2011-05-12T08:50:00.000-07:00

Hi........... I just blogshopped a little and i'm so tempted to get so many stuffs online. Gosh, how do i stop this temptation?

So broke this month i don't even feel like spending money on food. The thought of 800$ every month when school starts just makes me wonder if i applied the scholarship for money sake, or if i really do have a thing for teaching.

But on the other hand, if i don't have what it takes i wouldn't be selected. Out of so many people that were interviewed, only 15 were choosen. So proud to say i'm one of them. Hehehe :B

Realised so many people on my twitter are complaining about my longggggggg holidays. I have had like 7 months of holidays and am gonna be having another 2 more months before school officially starts.

You may say i'm enjoying, or slacking or whatsoever.. But truth is, it.is.so.damn.boring.

Imagine all of your friends have started school and you have no one to go out with..... And my boyfriend is serving national service. So i practically spend my everyday at home rotting.... Or maybe i go out once in awhile to have lunch with some friends i haven't seen for awhile.

And now you must be wondering why i am broke so easily when i don't even go out often huh? Apparently i have no idea myself too. But because i bought 2 jeans from denizen this month, i am left with 90$ to last till the 26th of may.

Anyhoo, i'm in love with my jeans. Bought 2 super skinnys of different cutting and colour. So damn surprised i could fit into the size 24 of the casual skinny. My butt is growing so scarily that i'm having a hard time fitting into the size 25 of my topshop highwaist shorts. The waist part is fine, just my humongous ass.

I'm not really a fan of long jeans/pants/whatever but somehow i really liked the one i purchased. I always think short people will look even shorter when they're in long pants but who cares.... And if you're wondering, i'm 150cm. Yadaaa no comments needed ^-^

Oh and btw, i miss my clique :( Please organise some outing okay awesome peopleeeeeeee! We need to hang out. Need.

Love y'all! :)

You and i both

2011-05-08T09:48:00.000-07:00

Lucky i'm in love with my best friend, lucky to have been where i have been♥

How we look like everytime after our morning run. Wanted to capture our red faces directly after the run but we cooled down even before we reached home hahaha.

SOFT! is the best place to visit if you're an ice cream lover, or simply if you have a sweet tooth. I had yummy lic'kat while baby had his godzilla max. It was so damnnnnnn good. Yumz!

Caught Fast5 over at Kallang Leisure Park at 9.30pm but before that, we went to get some army towels for my family. Yes, my family. I'm currently using it and i love it! It absorbs water really fast and dries quickly too. Suitable for me and my troublesome long hair while it's wet :)

Impromptu plan to head home first because the weather was seriously................ Too hot to handle. Changed into comfortable wear and headed to compass point for early dinner. Bought back for mum and dad and we had a short nap in my aircon room. Okay i had a short nap.

And guess what? Baby was busy playing his ipod and i guess he didn't wanna disturb me so he laid on the floor to play. Hahaha cute or what?! So thoughtful and loving awwhhhh :)

Oh and yup, Fast5 IS SO DAMN GOOD. SOOOOOOOO DAMNNNNNN GOOOOOOD!! If you haven't caught it, whatcha waiting for???? It's a waste if you were to miss such a good movie. I wouldn't mind watching it again for 5/10 times and i'm serious. Yup!

Spent the night over as usual and he left my place around 9am today. Same routine. So used to the life with him around, which practically explains why it took me a month to digest that he has enlisted and can't be with me everyday.

Even up till today, i wished i had him beside me every night. Sometimes it just gets so bad..... Referring to the emptiness i feel inside. No doubts it is tough, but with love, i do not know of impossible.

A little something for you baby:

Good luck for your IPPT test tomorrow! With your standard and stamina, gold is not far away. And even if you retain your silver position, so long as you've put in your best, then it's good enough! Don't always stress yourself out just to do me proud alright? You know you're always the best in my eyes. And yup, 3 magnum gold for you if you successfully attain gold! All the best! Love you! Xx

I have the best boyfriend on earth. Beat that! ☺

Hola

2011-05-03T08:45:00.000-07:00

Realised baby looked really good nowadays after browsing through the recent photos. But nope, only gonna praise him here not in his face cuz that boy will fly when he receives praises. Haha!

We've been really good. No quarrels no nothing. Only a tiny dispute few weeks back cuz i didn't allow him to smoke at night... but glad he understands everything i do or say is for his own good. I sound like his mum here and yup, he calls me mama all the time like a good boy :)

I cannot explain how awesome/weird/cool/fantastic/(any verb to describe great) our relationship is. We are so open to each other till the extend that we have no barriers. Not gonna elaborate but i hope you know what i mean.

Never ever thought that someone like him would exist. And when i told him that his species of guys are already extinct, he asked me to protect him so he wouldn't be one of them. SOOOO DAMN CUTE ^-^

And yup, everything is doing so well in my life i cannot be thankful enough. Anticipating the start of school yet again cuz life's been really bored, and aimless. Not exactly aimless cuz i always look forward to fridays to seeing baby but other then that, nothing else.

I've resigned from my job already because a person in the right mind would not continue working in such environment. Not planning to get anymore new jobs. Maybe just work for my uncle or something. Too lazy.

Thought of the best present to give baby on 1st anniversary. Nothing grand, not something he wants, but something he'll definitely love. And nope, no clues for you cheekyboy!

Awaiting friday so i can welcome baby's presence at Choa Chu Kang mrt again. Miss him so much.

Its past twelve so good day people!

Life in our hands

2011-04-24T09:00:00.000-07:00

Truthfully the picture above doesn't even look like me at all. Ohwell, it's still me btw, and nope, no photoshopping or whatsoever. Just edited the colours and brightness on photoscape.

Life's been really good. Family, love, work, and....... er nope, no school yet. Seeing everyone starting a new school life just makes me really hyped about me starting mine soon. Actually not that soon, approximately 2 more months to go!

Heard that becuz i'm on scholarship, the course will be tougher than the normal ones. But since i don't have to pay school fees and instead, i'm paid to study, then i don't see the point in not working extra hard.

$800 per month is not a joke. 4x more of what i'm receiving from mum, yup. However being an exceptionally nice mum, she told me she will still continue giving me my allowance, yipee! Which means i'll have about 1k every month hehe *.*

But nah, gonna save up the money for my future. $500 into my new personal account (which i will be opening soon) and i'm not gonna make an atm card for it so i won't use it as and when i like! Queuing at the bank and having to sign just to withdraw money, the hassle...

And $200 into my current account which i hold the atm card to, and the remaining $100 into me and baby's joint account. Don't be surprised, we're planning ahead therefore the joint account. And yup, please don't ask me what i will do with the money inside if we broke up/whatever cuz i haven't thought of that and definitely not gonna think of it.

Btw our 1st year anniversay is coming! So hyped up about it but at the same time, worried if i'll have enough kachingz to get baby a gift. You know whenever i spend on myself i feel the heartache, however if i spend on baby, i don't. True love?

It's my first time having such a long lasting relationship and i'm more than glad. Having gone through so many rains and storms, here we are, still standing strong. So, so glad.

More to come definitely and no doubts about it. Bet baby is sleeping soundly in camp now and i'm gonna turn in soon cuz there's work tomorrow. Talking about work...............

My boss is an idiot, really. First he ask me to do this, then that, and this and that and this and that and this and that, but he doesn't teach me HOW to do it. I mean seriously, you think i'm born genius?

And whenever i ask him to teach me to do the things he want me to, he'll go: aiyah its so easy. dont worry la. I'm not worrying don't worry. I'm just pissed over the fact that when the things i'm asked to do doesn't get completed, he nags nags nags and nags. Yes, like a naggy old grandma.

Eeew, really can't stand him. Furthermore he has bad breath and he looks. so. ugly. all. the. time and yet he's always trying to act like a big macho man cuz he's capable????? Please go look into the mirror then kill yourself or something.

Pfft....... Enough. Gonna quit in a week's time if i don't get any sales cuz right now my salary is commission based, no more per hour. I'ld rather get hourly pay seriously, cuz in that case i can slack the day away and still get some money. Right now.... zz.

Ciao! Xx

Lucky like me

2011-04-17T01:08:00.000-07:00

Nothing grand, nothing spectacular. Just a simple celebration. Happy 10th month my love! Thank you for the best 10th months of my life. There's one thing you ought to know, and that is my life has been much more fufilling than ever after you came into it. I don't know how life would be without you and I never want to know.

I love you, from the bottom of my heart ♥☺

Bored @ 2.30AM

2011-04-12T11:31:00.000-07:00

My right eye is red for no reason and yes, I pasted salonpas on my shoulders. This is practically how I look when I'm at the comfort of my own home hahaha

Byebye!

What we're made of

2011-04-10T08:33:00.000-07:00

No pictures this week. Didn't get to bring out the camera on Saturday because my sis has to use it for her project and yes, we share one camera. Don't see the point to have one on my own since I only use it for leisure purpose.

Tonight is the night i dread most. 1. Baby just booked in 2. Marks the start of a long boring week. These 2 are enough to make it bad. I don't know why I don't sound as chirpy as I'm suppose to be because apparently nothing is bothering me.. Awkward.

Baby didn't bring his camp pass when he booked in today, and therefore arrived late. Don't know what the punishment would be but confinement is definitely not hoped for. Times like this where either of us feels down and that we can't be by each other, I'm really relieved that at least our hearts still are.

I thought back about how I got to know him and how much we've progressed ever since. I don't really care about the fact that I'm dating my ex boyfriend's friend, because love just happens.

Recalling about the toughest period after my breakup with dex, Kyle was by me all along. I don't deny we were strangers then, however everything we talked about just seemed so relevant. Facebook, then msn, then sms, and finally, we met up.

Truth be told, Kyle didn't really impress me when I first met him. He's just like the epitome of a guy that I will never date. What matters most then was however, his personality and everything he had in him that no one has.

From the way he comes all the way to sengkang at night just to walk me home, to the way he puts in every effort to plan our dates, just melts my heart. He indeed is someone who can and will love me in the right way.

Things didn't really change much after we got together for we were already in love during the 3 months where he was after me. I felt so loved. My world somehow became more colourful than ever.

Initially I wasn't really proud to be with him. All his actions proved me wrong, wrong that all guys are as detestable. His all action no talk explains the pride I have now to tell people I'm together with someone I would like to grow old with.

No one really understands what I see in Kyle nor what we're made of. Well now let me assure you, he has every good in him that you girls wish your boyfriends have.

Can never be thankful enough to Kyle that my life is near perfection now. We both deserve halcyon days, and so we will. I love you baby :)

You smile, i smile

2011-04-03T14:20:00.000-07:00

Another fabulous weekend spent with my babyboy ♥♥♥♥♥♥♥

Went to fetch him at CCK at usual on friday night! Managed to gauge the time correctly so i only waited about an hour hehehe. Cabbed back to his house then made our way to Rivervale Plaza's Macs for our late late dinner :)

Got a shock when Libin tapped me on my shoulder, LOL. Been seeing Libin alot these few days.... Hehe. Really miss those school times where we gather outside econ before running into school.. Good old times huh!

Baby piggybacked me home thereafter cuz he promised to the other time!! Hehehehe ruvvvv you sillybun! Spent the night together :) Love how safe i feel whenever i wake up seeing baby beside me.. ♥.♥

Caught Sanctum at Vivocity on Saturday. Really awesome movie! Couldn't help but let my tears flow down cuz it was touching beyond words. Had dinz at Food Republic before taking a train down to cityhall and walked to MBS!!

Its our second time on skypark so it didn't really Wow-ed us that much, but i believe we enjoyed ourselves didn't we? :)

I love how serene and tranquil the atmosphere is over at skypark. Feels as if all my troubles have gone away with the wind. What's most enjoyable was having someone i love right beside me :)

Have to wait till friday before i get to see my baby again. As far as it may seem, nothing is ever too difficult for us to handle, right baby? Ruvvvv you so much i cant wait to see you! ^^

CINQ!

2011-04-01T00:01:00.000-07:00

If you're a follower of mine on twitter, you would have known that sis and i got our hair dyed for free at the salon her boyfriend works at! What a great deal huh!! ^0^

My camera was in my bag all along but i didn't take any photos cuz there were mirrors all around!! Like people seated the other side could see what i was doing but sis took some anyways! I dyed back the same colour (or rather a darker shade) cuz i couldn't make up my mind on what colour i want so yup! No more ugly black roots, yipeeeeeeee!!! :B

Really love their professionalism!! So if you wanna get your hair dyed/cut/washed/styled or anything, remember to visit CINQ okay! Ask for Jonathan, Cheetat or Theodore for the most pleasant salon trip!!!! :)

CINQ is located at:

137 Telok Ayer St, Singapore

Nearest mrt: Raffles Place OR Chinatown.

OR CALL +65 6223-3380 to book an appointment.

Thank you sis, Jonathan and friends once again!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Take me higher

2011-03-31T08:39:00.000-07:00

I wanna be silly with you, laugh with you and grow old with you.......... :) ♥

Drip drop drip

2011-03-26T23:28:00.000-07:00

So......... I left house a little too early on friday and had to wait 3 hours to finally get to see my baby! But i'm not complaining cuz its all worthwhile after all :) That boy was filled with angst though, complaining bout how his camp sucks and how pissed off he got! Hehe, cute thing!

Cabbed back to his place and went for late dinner at a hongkong cafe at Parkway area. Talked about how much we've changed over the 9 months together...... In the good way though. Who would have expected such a change without each other's presence in our lives? Not me!

Spent the night over at my place. Had a really long heart2heart talk before we both fell asleep. Appreciation and love, trust and commitment keeps us going all the time. Not forgetting faith of course.

On saturday, we both got up early because I had to head down to NAFA to sign some agreement. Dad fetched us there together with aunt. Took about only an hour!! Asked dad to drop baby and i off at Rivervale Plaza to get some breakfast.

Went back to my place and had an hour's rest before we get all set and ready to go!

Trained to Marina Square and caught Sucker Punch at 4pm. So embarrassed when baby caught me sleeping during my 1 minute nap at the beginning of the movie. HAHAHA! Had dinner at Yuki Yaki after that.

The person a bit funny ah lol told us that there were no seats and we had to wait till 7pm when we went there at 6.20pm. So we walked off leaving baby's name and number and 5 minutes later, we received her call saying there are empty seats. Lol her time management abit failllll.

Awwh!! ^^

I was feeling a little upset cuz baby couldn't spend the night with me so the train ride home was very very quiet. Knowing me so well, baby knew something wasn't right........

He would do anything and everything just to see me smile. That is perhaps why i love him :')

Thats about all!!!!

♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥

'(^oo^)'

2011-03-25T01:38:00.000-07:00

This post is damn random........ I'm all done preparing and waiting for the right time to leave house to go down to CCK to fetch my babyboy. And camwhore is what girls do when they're bored so therefore......

Fishball for you??

K bye!

2011-03-23T06:23:00.000-07:00

Eee since when my cam displays the time and date on my photos.......................... I don't know how to make it away someone teach me please?

Anyways i met Libin today at the mrt station!!! Like so coincidental, i was just talking to her ytd about meeting up and tadahhhhhhhhhhhh!! Hahaha. Caught up abit here and there till i left her to go meet sissy at bugis!

I bought a top at bugis street (the one on the pics on top). Gosh how many million years since i stepped into bugis???? Hahaha. Went town afterwards and got BFF and gongcha for dinner! Trained back home cuz it was drizzling and both our legs are aching like crazy, lol!

Friday is just like a day and a few hours away omg can you believe it??????????????? I'm seeing you soon my beloved babycat! Gonna head down to CCK to fetch baby again hehe. Angeline officially gave the 'Best Girlfriend Award' to me!! ^^

Anyways frolicks just called up Angeline and I to go down for an interview tomorrow!! Cuz we applied for it when they posted on fb saying that they are hiring! Hehehehe but sadly us fickleminded girlz rejected them cuz we didnt wanna work on weekends.

I dont want to becuz i want to spend time with my soldierboy hehe! I AM SUCH A GOOD GIRLFRIEND!!!!!!! And you know why? Becuz baby deserves my best ^^

Will be back soon, ciaooooooooooo ;)

My soldier, my love ^^

2011-03-20T02:24:00.000-07:00

So you kids should know, my baby finally booked out last friday!!! He called on thursday to inform me that he'll be out about 4+pm cuz of his good attendance for lessons, I WAS SO DAMN EXCITED!

On friday itself, he asked me to meet him at CCK mrt at 6.30pm and ofcuz i agreed! Hehe, when he came, i couldn't recognize him for a second.................... LOL DAMN DIFFERENT OKAY AND LIKE A STRANGE!! I was so happy+touched(idk why) that i cried!! LOL K RETARDED BUT I MISSED HIM LIKE CRAZY WHILE HE WAS AWAY!

LOOK AT MY HANDSOME + CUTE SOLDIER!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! ^^

Baby seriously became darker and fitter as compared to before! I guess this explains his hard work inside huh.......... Hehe! So proud that he gained like about..... 4kg! HAHAHA!!!

I had an awesome weekend with baby! The definition of awesome: Spending quality time with someone you love, feeling accomplished at the end of the day. Yup!

Baby's booking in in about 3 hours time........................................... :( We all dread times like that but it's gonna happen anyway so why not face it with the right attitude? :)

Baby, you must take good care of yourself in there okay! I know its tough but you're tougher right? Believe i've trained you well enough uh, hehe! Hang in there and brace yourself becuz in no time, you'll be back beside me already! I will be good too so don't worry about me alright! I will fetch you from CCK mrt like usual on friday, anticipate? Heh, be good okay! LOVE YOU!!!!

Hwee hwee ^^

2011-03-16T03:02:00.000-07:00

Greetings from Doby!!!!!!!!!! ^00^

Days like years

2011-03-15T08:54:00.000-07:00

I am backkkkkkkkk as promised! (Took quite long though, hehe) So yup, baby went NS since 4th march................ I haven't seen him for a pretty long time already but fret not, i will in about 2 days time! Yipeeeeee ^^

Initially it was extremely tough for us to cope with the distance, distance away from each other. We were never too far apart before his enlistment, always hanging out together, spending the night together, eating together.. We did almost everything together.

While he was away, my world became dull and lifeless.. Fortunately i have friends like joyce, angeline, meijie and more, who were there to accompany me when i was at the lowest point of my life. These are true friends :)

Anyways, i miss him alot but im dealing well! Occupied myself to the maximum.. Hehe. Worked for the IT fair held at Suntec on the 10-13march........ Sold more than i expected! Was really tiring but made great friends! Thanks to those who came down to say hi.. Hehe :)

So yeh.. Went out with my beloved joyce today. We went to Funan first for my interview at Challenger, had macs then trained to ION. Bought baby his Fred Perry military cap as promised!!!!!!! That boy ah, scared he look funny when he's botak so therefore, the cap! Hehe, hope he likes it!

Went fareast thereafter and got myself a highwaist shorts while joyce got jeans.. Haha. Had hot&spicy fishball for dinnerrrrrrrrrr!! Yumyumz!! (As im typing this im feeling hungry, lol!) Walked to dhoby and took a train home.. Yup thats bout all!

I really can't wait to see baby and how he looks like.. I havent seen him botak yet! Heh, i bet he looks really cute ^^ Can't wait to hug the fuck out of him too! I will post our (baby and me) photos prolly on saturday okay, then you kids can see how he looks like too.

Will be back, ciao!

Xoxo

2011-03-03T03:20:00.000-08:00

Dearest Kyle,

Time flies, and the day we all dread is approaching. Somehow or another i'm having mixed emotions like you are.. Happy because you'll be safe in there, whereas im also feeling down because i won't get to see you in two weeks, which is rather long for us. I dont deny that this road ahead will be tough, but what can bring us down when we've gone through more than the rest? People often say guys are unfathomable, it doesn't seem like it for us. We've all grown so attached to each other that we can actually feel what the other is feeling, know what the other is thinking. Of all the quarrels we've had, none of em' ends without us realizing our mistakes. We really came a long long way......... Two years to us is neither long nor short, but i believe it will be a breeze for us. I will see you in two weeks time okay baby? Take good care of yourself and worry less for me! I love youuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuu :)

Quality > Quantity

2011-02-26T09:17:00.000-08:00

Im back as promised!!!!!!!!! If you're a follower of mine on twitter, then you would have known i got the NAFA scholarship (ya again....lol) But it's confirmed this time round cuz i received the letter that needs to be signed and faxed back! A medical checkup is also compulsory so yeh :)

The happiness is overwhelming! Initially i was still damn afraid cuz Liling texted me that she and Sara got it already, and i havent...... So dad being nice, purposely came home to open the letterbox to satisfy my urge..... Lol! But sadly when he came home he told me there's no letter for me :(

Was kinda disappointed but yup, still went to prepare and met my darling at 545pm! Took a train down to Somerset and walked to fareast to window shop......... We are both broke kids therefore, window shopping :)

It was raining really heavily when we decided to head elsewhere for dinner so we settled for PastaMania instead!!!!! And guess what!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! While i was eating halfway, dad called and said i got the scholarship! Hehehe the mail lady naughty lor, so late then send to my house :(

I was over the big fat moon! Bbg shared my joy too cuz we were both yay-ing away, lol! After dinz we camwhored a lil' before heading down to Plaza Sing by foot. Walked awhile and i trained home alone cuz she went to her friend's bday party :)

Today, baby came over my place at 1pm cuz he didnt stayover yesterday night. That poor boy was feeling unwell the whole of friday and maybe earlier that he couldn't even sleep! He finally woke me up at 7+am in the mornz and i helped him apply medicated oil and massage his tummy a lil' before he could get some much needed rest....

So yup! We went to vivo today to catch the movie King's Speech!!!!!!!!!! Really awesome movie although our necks almost broke cuz we were seated on the second row from the screen! You should know how awesome a movie is if it's fullhouse ^^

Oh and before that, we went to get lunch at Food Republic......... Yes, food republic! Haha, usually we would dine at some fine-dining places but nah, time to be thrifty! Talking about money issues, im so damn hyped for school to start cuz i'll be getting 800$ every month for 3 years!!!!!! And i need not pay for my school fees too. Great deal right! :)

After the movie we took a train to cp to get his army stuffs before going home with long john silvers' for dinner. He stayed awhile before catching the last bus home... I asked him not to stay tonight cuz tmr i'ld be doing something for him!!!!! Hehehehe not gonna reveal until i give it to him so yeh, anticipate okay kids! ^^

Thats all for now, will be back ^^

Bloopbloop!

2011-02-25T08:46:00.000-08:00

Harrowz kids! Long time no see!!! I'll blog when i'm free alright, definitely not now cuz it's getting late and i gotta hit da sack soon! I have good and bad news to share with you guys so stay tune okay!

Ciao!

Love is in the air~

2011-02-14T20:51:00.000-08:00

Happy Valentine's Day! ♥

Early in the morning 6am, baby came over to my place and surprised me with a bouquet of flowers and two other gifts. The reason why he came so early: He didn't sleep at all. Wanna know what he gave me? :)

Heart-shaped cut out rock melon and the barley he boiled for the whole night!!!!! He knows i love his barley more than anything else, therefore.... my gift! Oh and how would vday be complete without flowers........

My favourite sunflowers!!!!!!!! Awwhhhhhhhhh how to not love a guy like him? People on fs keeps asking me why i'm with Kyle, and what do i see in him.. Well there, everything he does for me comes from the bottom of his heart. All are efforts, not just big talks. Answered your doubt now? :)

You must be wondering what i gave him in return........ Hehe something you guys will never think of! I got him Calvin Klein briefs that he would need for NS. So thoughtful leh you jesselyn! Hehehehehe. And a handmade card ofcourse :)

Rest for awhile before i prepared and we were ready to go!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I was incharge of the plans for the first half of the day and so... I researched for the perfect place to bring him for lunch but who knows, when we reached........... It was closed. As sad as i may be, the backup plan made up for the failed surprise :)

If you're a follower of mine on twitter, you would have known we dined at Pasta De Waraku instead. Not bad of a choice though! The pasta there is really really yummy!

After we filled our hungry tummies, we took a train down to suntec!!!!!!! Chilled at starbucks for half an hour before we board the ducktour! Hehe its baby's first time on a 'duck' ^^

Took a cab down to East Coast Park thereafter................ I tell you ah, the cab driver seriously asking to be smacked. Firstly he asked us to get another cab cuz the route we're going has a serious jam, then he keeps nagging about the jam.... I box you ah uncle!

Well anyway we still went ahead with our plans!! The jam caused baby 25$!!!!!!!! However it also allowed us to get a place before we were placed on the waiting list at Claypot Fun. Hehe! The pig liver there seriously damn mouthgasmic! I dont eat pig liver at all but ytd... I ate alot. Can tell how yummy it is now? ^^

This is my best valentine's day so far! Thank you baby, i love you! :)

So precious.

2011-02-11T08:51:00.000-08:00

Alohhhhhhhhha hehe! Been out with baby these days as usual. Had lunch at Jack's Place on monday before heading down to bugis to meet my jiejie and her bf, sean. Went for steamboat together at 天天火锅!! After filling our tummies, we went for dessert at The Freshest Cream On Earth, Marble Slab! Had a mouthgasm i swearrrrrrrrrrr ^^

They then left us for home while we chilled a little while more before catching The Green Hornet (3D) at illuma! Was an awesome show!!!! Cabbed back to my place thereafter and spent the night tgt :)

Today.................. Cabbed to baby's place at noon and went to collect his pay together at LPK. Headed down to Parkway Parade to get his cash and then had lunch at Pasta Mania!!!!!!!! This is the second time baby and i dined at Pasta Mania, hehe ^^

Took a cab down to Sim Lim Tower to get baby's BB cam removed to prepare him for NS.... Hehe that silly boy got so sad over it! So cute right!!!!!!!!!!!!! Awwh :)

Cabbed back to his place and hung out there for a lil' while before his dad sent me to the mrt station as it was pouring.... Hehe xie xie ni uncle! ^^ Took a train down to orchard and waited for 30 mins before bbg finally arrived!!!!!!

Shopped around Ion before heading to Tangs to get her watch and baby's valentine's day prezzie! Hehehehe very creative one okayyyyyyyyyyyy i bet no one can guess what i got for him! Right babyboy????? ^^ (He already knows it, sadly. LOL)

Had subway for dinner before walking down to Dhoby Ghaut. Stopped by at topshop knightsbridge to look for jasmine darling before continuing our walk!!!!!!! Hehehe. Caught up a lil here and there. Reached Dhoby and trained homeeeeeeeeeeee :)

Really love such times spent with baby, joyce and all that i love. Its always quality over quantity although i see baby almost everyday.... Im on webcam with him now cuz he's not at my place (obviously LOL)

He's lying on his bed like a sick little cat cuz he's having a bad tummy!!!!!! And meanwhile i'm starring at my cute little babycat ^^

Gonna visit granny tomorrow at NUH.... She just had an operation this noon, hope she's recovering fast!!!!!!!!! Not gonna see baby until Monday, which is Vday! I know you'll read this.......sooooooooooooooo, i miss you very much i'm gonna die :(

Cya on Monday okay babyboy!!!!!! And catch y'all kids soon! Tata! ^^

Gong xi fa cai $.$!!

2011-02-05T05:52:00.000-08:00

Day1.

Happy new year everybody! Hehe.. This year's new year was one of the best, though in the previous post i said i wasn't excited but well......... Yup, the amount of $ i received is the highest throughout my 16 years of new year, lol!

And nope, cny is not only about receiving money, but red packets are served as a form of blessing. New year allows people to come together as one, catch up and grow closer to each other! I had a fun one, but it would be perfect if baby was here with me :)

How was your new year kids?? ^^

Day2.

Caught 'Its a great great world' with my fam at amk hub! An awesome movie!!!!!!!!!! Hehe! Headed down to the CSI exhibition at Science Centre as we heard it was really good... But its was a disappointment + waste of money.

Furthermore there were many rude and selfish people! Keep pushing their way through to see whats happening and all...... Used the computer provided for so long!! I really dont like those kiasu parents keep squeezing their kids to the front when there is obviously NO MORE SPACE. Hello manners fly where ah??!

Got out of there asap and stopped by at RP's KFC for dinner! Headed home after that :)

I will blog about day3 and day4 another day! Baby's coming back tomorrow!!! Yay finally!!!!!!! Miss him so muchhhhhhhhhhh :'(

Catchya kids soon!

Oh its new year soon.......

2011-01-30T06:19:00.000-08:00

In the past i used to be really excited about cny, and i really anticipate it's coming, not this year though.. Prolly becuz when we grow older, the excitement kinda wears off. But oh well, i still did new year shopping with my fam neway.

The dining table is filled with goodies!!! There's hardly any space to have our meals anymore.... And no, my dining table's not small!!! Its kinda bigggggggg or rather just the right size for 6 people. So you can roughly imagine how much goodies we bought..

Been down with terrible cramps the last two days, which explains why i didn't join my fam at chinatown ytd.. I was home resting the whole day! Thank god the cramps are gone now...... :)

And oh, really wanna thank baby for coming over just to give me the panadol and tuck me in on friday night. He's sucha gem!!! Lurb youx100000000 0kay babybun!!!! ^^ And thanks, really! He's coming over to my place in awhile...... It's his last day at work today anyways. Hope he'll have some good fun time!! :)

No pictures todayyyyyyy so sorry! Will be back soon okay babies! Happy cny in advance! :)

2 in 1!

2011-01-26T04:41:00.000-08:00

Had cravings for IKEA's daim cake so i suggested to baby that we head there for lunch on tuesday, which is yesterday! And so we did! Sadly they didn't have the cake displayed ytd so didn't get to satisfy my craving.... But oh well, at least we had a filling meal didn't we baby? :)

Took a bus to tampines mall and caught Shaolin at 5.50pm! Really a touching movie!!!!!!!! The woman sitting beside me was like sniffing nonstop LOL. Baby expected me to cry but nope, the strong girl didn't! Hehehe :P

Trained back to baby's place. Played with ruffy ruffles while baby get changed......... Then we took a cab back to my place and he spent the night over :)

And oh today, is one of the most important day for me! Remember the post where i told you kids about my interview? Yup, its today!

Had lunch at cp before we cabbed over there. Boy, what a ride huh! Almost puked cuz there were so many red lights! Wasn't feeling very good then cuz 1st, we were late. 2nd, i was so nervous! 3rd, i had motion sickness that i wanted to pukeeeeeeeeeee (but luckily i didn't)

The interivew.......................................was really scary. Imagine facing 4 strangers and being bombarded with questions by them! I couldn't really relax myself so i stuttered here and there. Hopefully i'll still get selected!

Cabbed back to my place thereafter, planning to catch a movie after i was done changing. And oh ya!!!!!!!!! I went out in a long sleeve and jeans and flats and my hair was clipped up, revealing a naked face. Lol i swear you wouldn't see me like that anymore! Wanted to give the people a good first impression therefore the dressing!

So yup, it was pouring like crazy so we decided to stay home instead! Walked to cp for dinner after the rain settled downnnnnnnnnn. Bought some jelly from cold storage which i will be snatching with baby in awhile LOL.

That cute little cat has been lying on my bed alone while i completed 3 blog posts. Lol he told me he's feeling lonely! You tell me cute anot!!!!!!!! Gonna go keep him company now!

Ciaos!

Mj's 17th!

2011-01-25T04:32:00.000-08:00

Celebrated Meijie's birthday on Monday with the clique!!!!!!!!!!! Bought her a dress as birthday present and had her to wear it out with us on that day hehe! Surprisingly she cooperated without any complains! ^^

Had a mouthwatering dinner at Makansutra Glutton's Bay! Glad she loved itttt cuz we did! Although it was but a simple celebration, but we could tell how happy she was! Well at least i felt that she really enjoyed!

Now that school is starting for JC and poly in afew months................We will definitely drift :( Hopefully not that far huh! Must meet frequently okay babies! :)

Once again, happy birthday my pretty cow! :)

Best bbg! ♥

2011-01-24T03:52:00.000-08:00

Finally had a chance to meet my favourite girl on sunday! Its been a long time since we've caught a movie together or just chill out. I missed her so much!!!!!!!!!!!

Before we caught Lelio Popo at Cineleisure, I went to take the pants from jasmine darling! Borrowed it from her cuz i needed it for my interview on Wed. Walked back with a large coke from mac and smuggled it into the cinema hall!! Hehe :)

Couldn't find our seats cuz it was so dark inside and she made me stand facing the stairs for 5 minutes before she realized we're nowhere near the seats. LOL it was so embarrassing! The show is super funny and touching neways! ^^

Had dinner at 日本村, meal's on Joyce! Heheeeeeee! Ordered alot of food but as usual, i was the one who couldn't finish! So sorry but thanks okay babygirl!!!!!!! ^^

School is starting for her soonnnnnnnnnnn! Gonna miss you! But no fear cuz we'll definitely keep in contact!

Love you! :)

Over the big fat moon!!

2011-01-21T08:58:00.000-08:00

Oh gosh i'm so happy now!!!!!!! And you kids are the one whom i thought i should share this joy with............ Hehe. I received a letter from MOE this evening after waiting for a whole full week! Mum scared me saying my application failed. But no, she didn't fool me!

When i opened it up..............................

YAYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY!!! Hehe! Although i haven't secure my place there yet, but so what!!!!!!!!! Its an opportunity! A golden one that is. Hopefully my interview will succeed!

Wish me luck okay babies! Xoxo :)

7th!

2011-01-19T03:40:00.000-08:00

Hi kids, im back!

On the 17th this month was our 7th month!!!!!!!! Our as in baby and me... Hehe. Had a simple yet enjoyable celebration ^^

Had lunch over at Jack's Place before heading down to Plaza Sing to catch Burlesque! Woah i tell you ah Burlesque is supa awesome x100000!! All of you kids whom haven't caught it yet, go catch it now! I mean nowwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwww!!!!!! You wouldn't regret :)

Initially we wanted to sneak Chippy into the cinema but too bad the timing didn't allow! Hehe. Went to fareast for a little shopping and had Chippy for dinz!! YAY!! ^^

Took a train to Kallang and made our way to baby's house by foot. Chilled a lil' while before we cabbed over to Pasir ris for some late night prawning! Caught 4 silly little prawns and poor baby got tons of mozzie bites....... :(

Got home and slept like pigs cuz we were so tired! Oh maybe only me.... LOL i felt so sick i don't know why...................... Almost vomited on the cab! And that sweet little cat fed me noodles and tucked me in before he went to bed himself.... Awwwwhh ♥

And oh regarding the NAFA/MOE thing..................I haven't gotten any response. Hopefully they'll call me tomorrow or some time soon!

Keeping my fingers crossed! xx

Shine a different light

2011-01-14T01:52:00.000-08:00

So...............................................I got updated about my application regarding the MOE/NAFA scholarship! Preaze faster process tyvm!!!! ^^ Was walking around in the 'Art Stage' with baby when i received the good news :)

The art pieces there are fabulously awesome that I had an eyegasm!!!!! Guessed baby had one too. Works of different artist from all around the world were displayed, saw some new styles that i could put to use too. Really loved the surrealism pieces hung up there :)

Caught 'Seasons of the witch' with baby over at Marina Square after that and had late dinz at Xin Wang Hongkong Cafe thereafter. Headed home and spent the night together..............:)

Heard that many of my friends are entering poly instead of JC... Well actually initially i too, wanted a place in JC, but after deep thoughts and many advices, i decided to just pursue what i really want..

And since young art has always been my passion, something i can never be tired of. I've done well in art over the years in CVSS, i guess its time to further venture into the World of Arts.

Its really amazing how attached i am with art.... 11 years of doing art, is finally getting me somewhere. It doesnt really affect me anymore if people think heading towards art for a bright future would be futile, because we all only live once.. If you don't enjoy what you're doing while you're alive, then life would be meaningless.

Different people seek perfection in different ways. There's absolutely nothing wrong in taking the longer, but steadier way, no? The saying 'You reap what you sow' keeps me going everytime, it makes me wanna work harder for what i really want.

Fortunately my family and baby are giving me support in every decision i make regarding my tertiary education, and since i am happy with it, then whats to fear? Life goes the way we want it to go, so if we stay on the right track..... Then nothing should go wrong.

On a lighter note, our 7th month is coming!!!!!!!!!!!! Hehehehe my first ever 7th month with someone i love. Really elated how our relationship worked out so well although we faced countless tough times.. :)

Alrighty gonna get a bath, ciao!

A brighter future

2011-01-12T09:34:00.000-08:00

Its been a long long while kids! I'm finally back!!!!!!! Yes, the release of Olvls results is finally over....................... Hearts' feeling itchy regarding my score? Haha, well my score's not too bad, not as good as I expected, but definitely able to get me somewhere good. Have fun guessing! :)

Realized i haven't been blogging for a good long while. Been out with baby most of the time, or just rotting at home. Ever since O's ended i've been spending quality time with him, having stayovers frequently and all. He has grown closer to my fam too :)

During the days that i haven't been blogging, we've gone to several places.

Had a picnic at Marina Barrage a few weeks ago with my fam and baby. Really enjoyed such get-together although all we could do was to look-see here and there. Went for Tron Legacy 3D with baby thereafter.. Awesome movie with fabulous graphics!

Caught The Tourist, Gulliver's Travel, Let Me In, Doraemon, Confessions, The Chronicles of Narnia and er...................... Many more movies!!!! Also dine at many places like Dian Xiao Er, Ajisen, Jack's place, Swensens and Ramen Play!!

And ohyah! If you're a fan of ramen, Ramen Play has the best ramen ever!!!!!! Baby and i went to the outlet outside USS.. Good service, awesome food and reasonable pricing!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! ^^

Here's baby with his unagi set at Ramen Play!

After dinner we went to candylicious and got some yummy jellybeans/lollies/rock candy! Hehe! Headed back to vivo and baby bought me 2 tops from topshop.... Pwretty witty one!!! ^^

And ytd, we went to catch The Ghost Must Be Crazy at NEX before heading down to clarke quay for massage at Healing Touch! Man, how much i wished i could be there for more than i deserved!!! Went Streets Hongkong Cafe to have dinz after that.......^^

Made our way back to clarke quay by foot and chilled there a little while before heading home. Awesome nightview with the right person = perfect night :)

Days with baby ah........................seriously....idk what to say. SO IDYLLIC!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! He brings me to places i haven't been before, eat food i haven't ate, see things i haven't seen...... He brings 'life' to a higher level!

Its getting late i gotta head to bed! Will update sometime soon. Catch ya kids!

Best people ever!

2010-12-23T09:39:00.000-08:00

Finally..........................................CLIQUE OUTING!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Everyone was busy working we had no time to catch up. Fortunately all 6 of us was able to squeeze out some time to meet up and head to the zoo for some fun!

Nothing much in the zoo had changed, same animals, same smell LOL. Really glad i spent my entire Tuesday with such awesome people... Moreover baby came over to my place after work as usual. Hehe.

Will have the chance to meet up with these awesome people soon cuz a special occasion is arriving!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Excited kids? Keep y'all updated! :)

Re: Angeline's Tag :)

2010-12-22T09:27:00.000-08:00

Its been long huh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Gosh, didn't really had the time to blog till now cuz i've been busy with my family, baby and friends.. Not forgetting the many short term jobs i had. So yup :)

Gonna do a blog post that Angeline tagged me in.... Here it goes!

1) Movie or a series of shows as in episodes?
Prolly movies! I dont like those drama series cuz i can't keep up with them lol.

2) Noodles or Rice?
Noodles definitely!

3) Sweet popcorn or salted popcorn?

Sweet!!! The salted one taste funny .__.

4) Outdoors or Indoors?
Ofcuz indoors for a person that doesn't like the sun, flies and mud LOL

5) Would you rather go out with messy hair and nice make-up, or nice hair and no make-up?

Hmm........ I can't decide! But i guess i'll still go out with nice hair and no make up. My hair is my most valuable possession!!! HEHE ^^

6) Cats or dogs?

Dogs surely :) Though cats are cute and my baby loves to act like a cattttttttt. Mewmew!

7) Would you rather shave your eyebrows or have your eyelashes fall out?

LOL none????

8) Eating fries with fork or just using fingers?

Fork!! But sometimes certain food taste nicer using your fingersssssssss hehe

9) 1 thing you CANNOT leave your house without?

PHONE!

10) Heels or flats?

Flats! Easier to walk in and more comfy ^^

11) Coke or Pepsi?
Both taste the same don't they?? @.@

12) Blogging or Twittering?

Twittering! Don't really have time to sit down and come up with a decent blogpost...

13) Eating or Sleeping?
HAHAHA BOTH I GUESS!

14) Would you rather go out with a bad haircut or a bad hair colour?

Eh.....................None T.T Love my hair so much i could die if they look bad!

15) Tomato sauce or Chilli Sauce?

Chilli Sauce! I like it spicy.... Hiak hiak! ^^

Hehe, that's for now! Will blog about the zoo trip with my clique and events on Christmas! Toodles :)

Etched in the heart

2010-11-20T09:16:00.000-08:00

Time flies... Prom night marks the end of the secondary school journey. As easy as it may seem, truth is, I dread leaving....leaving the place where all the memorable things happened. But ohwell, we should never stop at a point in life, it will only slow us down.

Still remember the first day I entered Compassvale Secondary School.. How rebellious and 'Ahlian-ish' I used to be, how i loved attention from teachers, and how 'pop' i was. Lol, memories uh! From the rebellious sec1 days, we have grown, grown to be a better man. Indeed, these 4 years aren't easy, but I made it, we all made it through. So proud of you people, the 2010 batch! :)

I guess pictures will convey my thoughts better, so there you go :))

These are the people i will miss the most!!!! My awesome clique. So much laughter, so much fun.. Love you awesome people so damn much!!!!!!

And these people that always make my day.. :)

I WILL MISS YOU PEOPLE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

My favourite boy

2010-11-19T10:01:00.000-08:00

We went to Universal Studios Singapore, Resort World Sentosa!!!!!! ^^

I've never had so much fun in my life before, especially right after my strenuous mugging period... Baby you know you provide me with the best you can, be it in any form of love. We've been through alot, but we've successfully overcome everything and emerge as an invincible pair. I've never felt so good with someone before, so good being myself, and getting accepted for being myself. Hopefully i am too, providing you with the best i can.

I love you, breathe you, and live for you. See you soon baby :)

Halycon days

2010-11-11T03:04:00.000-08:00

I don't know if anyone still reads my blog but, HELLOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO IM BACK! Gosh, it's been awhile! O's are officially over..... not. Last paper is tomorrowwww so yeh, kinda got the holiday mood already :)

Life's good, so good it can't get any better. With less stress now and more love, what's more to ask for? Baby and i had been on really good terms these few weeks, spending almost every possible free time tgt! And if you ever read this baby, i wanna thank you for being so understanding towards my hectic schedule and for the never ending support during my O's!!!!! ^^

I'm finally meeting Angeline on saturday!!!! Been a gazillion years since i've saw her. Well well idk what else to write already sooooo i'll blog tomorrow, cuz i'll be heading out with my babycat!

Catch y'all soon!

Life....

2010-10-13T21:17:00.000-07:00

Gosh, i haven't got online on my comp for sucha a long time i almost forgot how to type. Lol. Anyway HELLO WELLO EARTHLINGS!!!! Sorry for not updating at all for the past weeks.. Really discouraging to see that my blog hits dropped so much cuz of my negligence towards this space :(

Life........ As mundane as it may seem, somehow or rather there are still afew things which kept me going. My family, my boyfriend, and ofcuz my friends. The pace of life today is so fast i hardly ever have time to stop and smell the roses.. Sigh.

Olvls are just a week anyway... And you may question why i'm still on at this crucial period. Well, we're only human and we need rest, no? Heading out to study in abit anyway. Wont be back till o's are over.

Tons of love till then.

So forlorn

2010-09-20T10:49:00.000-07:00

At times like this when your heart aches so bad, all you need is a hug.

Never knew i would feel like this

2010-09-10T11:14:00.000-07:00

I have been spending three continuous day with baby already and today is the third. So glad that prelims are over and a burden's off my shoulder.... Finally able to spend some quality time with Kyle :)

Undoubtedly, today is yet another awesome day out. We headed to the food fair then caught a movie and headed home. Short but fufilling day :)

Kyle gives me this special feeling, a feeling that i can share anything and everything with him comfortably. We really can talk about anything under the sun...... Hehe. And it is this kinda talks that brought us closer, to where we are today. :)

Really loves how he tries to put everything in plan and how hard he has shown what i really mean to him. I know this might sound cliche... But he's the best boyfriend i've had. :)

Days and nights are never lonely anymore cuz you're always with me baby, thanks for today and everything. See you next friday :)

Happiness overwhelmed

2010-09-07T19:05:00.001-07:00

Heading to school in awhile!! Meeting baby for dinz after that so yup. Just a short update cuz I'm bored in bed :(

Gotta go prepare in awhile so toodles!

Pillar of strength

2010-09-06T10:22:00.000-07:00

Today is undoubtedly the best day i've spent with Kyle so far. I really really really haven't enjoyed myself like that for long.... Thanks for today baby, you know how much i appreciate you and everything you do, be it for yourself, for me, or for us.

So glad that you're understanding towards my terribly hectic schedule cuz i'm taking my O'lvls this year, and im sure you know what i'm working towards. Hope you'll support me all the way! I know you're already doing that :)

Looking forward to more awesomely-fun time with you in time to come! I love you :)

Holding on makes us strong

2010-09-01T05:21:00.000-07:00

Supppppppppppppppp! I realized i've been neglecting this space...for good. Haha! Prelims just ended a week ago and we got back our results this week. Pretty satisfied with my results cuz my hard work paid off ^^

The impact of my MYE results made me mugged so hard that stress caused me to have rashes... Lol. Sounds really funny but yeh, a doctor's prediction is always right, no? Furthermore i always visit him when i'm ill so yup, no doubts about his medical skills.

Went out my clique today for Sakura buffet at downtown east! Too bad zhihua couldn't come cuz she had some.... er throat infection or smth im not really sure. Yup.. Geraldine got the time wrongly so we spent an hour or so in E!hub's arcade.. Managed to exchange a few sweets with the tickets we won! Haha! (My first time playing in an arcade ^^)

I realized whenever there's clique outing..... We always end up eating. LOL IM FRIGGIN SERIOUS ABOUT THIS. First it was steamboat, then Swensen's ice cream buffet, now Sakura buffet.................. Lol might turn into a pig soon!

Olvl's are just 2 months away.. Gosh. Fortunately i already feel the stress crawling in so yeh, gonna start mugging already. Really hope olvls end quickly... Deprive of play time seriously. :(

I miss baby.... Seeya tomorrow!!!

Garden which blossoms

2010-08-18T05:13:00.000-07:00

Just realised i haven't blogged for awhile. School life is really hectic and packed with endless after school programmes and what not... Been really busy. Fortunately prelims are ongoing and all the asps have already stopped, good time for me to catch my breath.

Sat for afew important exams the past one month from now.. Chinese olvl oral, chinese olvl paper1&2, and just sat for the olvl english oral yesterday. Pretty confident for the english oral, prepared myself really well... So yeh, hope i'll fare up to expectations.

Got back the olvl mother tongue results today anyway, and im really glad i got my desired results. Seems like the paper this time round is kinda difficult, total distinction for sec4exp is merely a 30.9%..

But nevertheless, congrats 4f!!! We all did well, we're on par with 4h with a MSG of 2.6! Leow laoshi must be over the moon.. Haha. My clique didn't do very well though.... But don't worry im sure they'll do better the next time round! Jiayou okay awesome people!!

Joyce didn't do very well either and i can tell she's really disappointed. Well well, do better next time round alright! It'll be my pleasure to offer help. Hehe, shall see you on friday for our study session, love you sooooo much :)

Okay anyway............ I have no mood to continue. Feeling really fucked up. Will be back soon, ciao.

Embrace the struggles

2010-08-11T02:19:00.000-07:00

Hi! I'm in the midst of procrastination and trapped in trepidation as i think about tmr's examination. (eh rhymes leh haha!) I ammmmmm so bored I'm gonna die :(

I don't feel like studying but I have to becuz I have three freaking killer papers tmr, okay two killer papers to be exact, emath is not much of a worry. Ss + pure geog = eat up all your braincells :( they killed my braincells and now I have none, which is why I'm not able to get down to studying cuz I'm absorbing nothing!

Really hope for prelims to be over soon! (which is quite some time away lol) well well......won't be able to get the edusave award already cuz I screwed up my midyears. To think I obtained 2 awards last year and I'm bound to receive none this year makes me a sadgurl4lyfez :(

Okay......on a mission to revive my braincells now so toodles, will be back! :)